Amongst the chaos

        Do you ever feel like you're going no where fast? That's been the story of my life lately. Sometimes I think we just over think things and contemplate where we are going and what we are doing with our life too much. We're all guilty of it. As a semester draws to a near end I think about what classes to take next, if I'm choosing the right career, if I'm choosing the right school, if I want to stay where I'm at for the next couple years, etc.

 Anyone that knows me knows that I don't like to stay in one place for too long. That causes a real problem for me when trying to decide where I'm going to stay put for school. I like change and embrace it. I hate to live a predictable life. I'm not sure why I am this way, but I am. I still don't feel 110% certain of what is going to happen but I know what I am aiming for.

 

 

I went home for a visit 2 weeks ago and it couldn't have been more perfect. I got to spend time with everyone that I love, although I wish it could have been longer. I have definitely learned the importance of family and true friends. I am glad that I have a strong relationship with my family and that we can communicate and keep in touch so easily. I am thankful for the friends that I have that I know will be by my side no matter what. You know you have a true friend when you haven't seen each other in 8 months and it's as if you were never apart.

 But I have also learned the importance of meeting new people. I believe that people are put in your path for a reason. I try to take something away from every friendship/relationship that I develop. I have been lucky to meet and make friends out here in Utah that I know I will have forever. As cheesey as that sounds, I know it's true. I know that there is something to be learned in every situation. Even if it's not a situation where you would normally think there is something to learn. I'm sure there is at least one thing you can take away from it. I was lucky enough to find people that laugh at my stupid jokes and brush off my plethora of blonde moments. People that although I haven't known very long, seem to know me pretty well.

 I have learned that life is what you make it. I'm sure I could've moved anywhere and been just as happy as I am here in Provo. But I'm not somewhere else, I'm right here. And I'm going to make it worth it. You can't control every little thing that happens in your life and that is something that was hard for me to finally grasp. Only worry about the things you can control. Not what you cannot.

I've learned that you should live your life for yourself, not anyone else. Do what makes you happy and do it well. Don't worry what others think. There will always be someone that can find something negative with a situation. Learn from their attitude, learn not to have that attitude. Be the person that people want to be around. Be the person that you love. Don't be the person that cares what others think. Be the person that walks outside with a smile on their face. Be the person that people remember. If that is in a good way or bad way is up to you. But I suggest a good way. Be the person that makes people want to be better because they know you. But most of all, be the person that makes YOU happy.

 Set goals, reach dreams, do things on your bucket list. Embrace change and new situations. It's amazing the things you can learn by just opening your eyes to the things and people around you. Open your heart and take chances. Don't be afraid to take a leap of faith. I did. And if I can do it, anyone can.